Joanna Sylph

黑暗集合体、负能量磁铁、偏执自虐狂。
negative, self-egoist, troublemaker.

I'm so much happier now that I'm dead.

Technically, missing. Soon to be presumed dead.

Gone.

And my lazy, lying, cheating, oblivious husband will go to prison for my murder.

He took my pride and my dignity and my hope and my money. He took and took from me until I no longer existed. That's murder. Let the punishment fit the crime.

...

Happy anniversary.

He loved a girl I was pretending to be. "Cool girl". Men always use that as their defining compliment. " she's cool girl."

Cool girl is hot, cool girl is game, cool girl is fun, cool girl never gets angry at her man, she only smiles I a chagrined, loving manner and then presents her mouth for fucking. She likes what he likes, so evidently, he's a vinyl hipster who loves fetish manga. If he likes Girls Gone Wild, she's a mall babe who talks football and endures buffalo wings at Hooters.

When I met him, I knew he wanted Cool Girl. And for him, I'll admit, I was willing to try. I wax-stripped my pussy raw. I drank canned beer watching Adam Sandler movies. I ate cold pizza and remained a size two. I blew him semi-regularly.

I lived in the moment.
I was fucking game.

I can't say I didn't enjoy some of it. He teased out of me things I didn't know existed. A lightness, a humor, an ease. But I made him smarter, sharper. I inspired him to rise to my level. I forged the man of my dreams.

We were happy pretending to be other people. We were the happiest couple we knew. And what's the point of being together if you're not the happiest? But he got lazy, he became someone I did not agree to marry.

He actually expected me to love him unconditionally. Then he dragged me, penniless, to the navel of this great country, and found himself a newer, younger, bouncier Cool Girl.

You think I'd let him destroy me and end up happier than ever?

No fucking way. He doesn't get to win.

My cute, charming, salt-of-the-earth, Missouri guy, he needed to learn. Grown ups work for things. Grown ups pay. Grown ups suffer consequences.


---- Gone Girl

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